This blog has changed into poetry…
beauty is not the rose
beauty is the seed
beauty is the pollen
beauty is the bee
beauty is you
beauty is not me
beauty is in the words
that try to tell you
what i feel and
what i see and
what i know
about you
about me
beauty is you
beauty is not me.
And I wonder who I am, who I want to be.
Am I the man that loves you, that longs to love
This woman I hardly know, for what do we know
About anyone that isn’t inside our very own heads?
Should I go right up to you, kissing you lightly,
Forcefully, and softly, and yet with the passion
You long for in a man, strong and determined,
Making you smile within your own thoughts.
And, yet, am I the man to be this man,
Am I strong enough to tell you what I feel,
Show you what you want from me, and
Am I right to know what it is that you want?
Ok, so I tried again, but it seems unfinished and wandering…
You know it’s an amazing thing when you know no one will ever read what you write…anyways…I’m not sure if I should be happy or sad…just know that this mood I’m in is making me feel out of place…goodnight moon…
You have to be strong enough
As a man to know
You’re not strong enough…
Really don’t have anything to put this in…but I thought it up and don’t want to forget…
Maybe I should tell you the truth.
You run away from me as much
As I run away from you,
And yet we don’t really get
That far away, the distance
Always seems too close,
I run for hours, and turn
Only to find you a few feet
Away, breathing hard and
In shock…
Maybe I should tell you the truth.
The sad part is, I really don’t care, that I really don’t care…maybe I should…goodnight…
…there isn’t a good reason for me to even write anything anymore. Maybe it’s me, but I’m tired of everything right now. Maybe I’ll write again, but not right now.
i want you and you want me
but we dont want each other
we want what we want and
that is to be with the ones
we are with the ones we love
its insanity in the least
sanity at its worst
its right in the wrong places
and wrong at its heart
and so i look away from you
when i see you because
i cant stop looking at you
and i see you doing the same
why can this happen
all it would take
is a simple little touch
and you would be in my arms
our lips caressing lips
your eyes closed with mine
wide open because as i said
i cant stop looking at you
at your beauty
at your lovely soul
and it is at times like these
when i want to scream your name
as i know you would scream mine
bodies pressed together
and yet i cant say your name
i wont say your name
i see you in my minds eye
and i shiver in pain
in lust and love and
every little thing
i cant and wont explain
and so i say goodnight
my lovely love
my…and still
i cant say your name…
Just tell me what you want to say,
Just tell me what I want to hear,
Don’t stand back, smiling that smile of yours,
Your hand touching that cheek,
Your eyes, tiny pinpricks of black
Surrounded by color so brown,
Or green, or grey, or blue,
Just walk up to me, you,
A beautiful creature, a beautiful woman,
And tell me what we both want,
If only you could open your mouth,
If only I could hear the words so right,
And then we could move on from this space,
This spot that goes nowhere, and yet,
One step would move us miles from here.
Just tell me what you want to say
So I could hear what you want me to hear,
So I could know the words, so true, so you,
And I could tell you what I want to say,
And I could tell you what you want to hear,
If only one of us could move…
…been awhile…hopefully, this one was wait worthy…
A pause, a fleeting moment,
A passing thought,
And I wonder if I had ever,
Truly and wonderously,
Had I ever loved you.
I know I loved of you,
Your eyes, your smile,
The little laugh you give
When you think no one is
Near you to hear you.
I know I lusted after you,
Your skin, so soft,
Your scent so warm and light,
Your breath, as it washed
Over my face, a light wind,
And I wanted to kiss you,
To touch you all over,
And leave a place in your
Thoughts of me and only me,
I wanted to write more, but I’m falling asleep…goodnight…
May 23, 2012
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